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When I was a child
By Billy | March 11, 2011
When I was a child I thought like a child.
I reasoned and spoke as I’d be taught as a child.
I thought mountains were mountains
and trees were just trees.
I thought prayer was a thing that you did on your knees.
I thought faith was what it was when you heard then believed.
But worst of all, I caught the disease
of believing that God’s on a cloud you can’t see.
And thinking there’s limits between you and me.
But as I’ve grown wise, I’ve learned truths in degrees.
as I grew older I learned
that my questions had turned
into answers as surely as my heart still yearned.
As I grew older I realized there’s beauty and wonder
and truth in my questions being torn all asunder.
Because
When I was a child, I thought I knew stillness.
I thought prayer was a cure, and sin was an illness.
I thought justice was something you’d know when you’ve died
and that it’s payback for all of the tears that you’ve cried,
and that grace is dependent on how hard you’ve tried.
I thought in binaries constantly, and feared the divide.
I thought salvation was found at the end of the ride,
I thought peace was the time when the wars would subside.
When I was a child I had rocks for best friends.
I knew shields of seashells, and treetop dead ends.
When I was a child I knew dirt and rain,
I knew nothing of happiness;
nothing of pain.
When I was a child I was weightless
and free
I knew limits ignored
made my limits all flee.
When I was a child
I was mighty and strong
I believed in a difference between right and wrong.
When I was a child I knew strength in the trees.
And I felt no distinction between them and me.
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