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An excuse for an apology: Another post waking up the ghosts

Tuesday, July 29th, 2014

I use this blog for a number of reasons. One of the things this blog helps me do is be honest. When I’m publicizing it, I am more intentional with my words. Usually, once I’ve transmitted something the way I mean to convey it, I’m quite pleased, even proud, of the accomplishment. I spend hours […]

What’s in a name?

Wednesday, December 18th, 2013

My relationship with my name has been “it’s complicated” since I was… maybe 11? That’s the earliest I can remember, at least. At the beginning of 6th grade, Mrs. Mead called roll and asked if we had any nicknames. For whatever reason, my heart started racing. We do this every year, but this time felt […]

Positive and Negative Motivations

Tuesday, August 28th, 2012

I do this thing that I hate; that I want to change. I do it allllll the freaking time. I do it and I want to stop, but… maybe I haven’t ever stopped because I’ve never had the right motivations. This is what I do — to the detriment of myself and the people I […]

Quitting music is the easiest thing… I do it all the time.

Tuesday, July 24th, 2012

I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again. I’m quitting forever. Today I watched a rather informative YouTube video about vibrato on the violin. And after crying for a while, I decided to quit playing the viola. I’m just certain my body is incapable of making it sound beautiful. No, I’ve never had a […]

Open Letter of Intent

Monday, March 19th, 2012

So this is me asking my friends and family to proofread something. I’m publishing this blog post with literally NO readthough, having finished the last sentence. I will go through periodically and read, change, edit, etc., and then eventually submit it. Your comments are not only appreciated, but begged for. — Don’t let my philosophy […]

Yahallelu, Alhamdulillah, etc.

Sunday, February 26th, 2012

Oh, wide meadow, do you fear the reaper? We who walk and run, we worry. From whom can we buy time? Whence comes your endless love of reaching for the sun? Teach us, I beg you, to honor the reaper and the soil and why you ever spring back. And how (!)(?) I found an […]

The Songs of Taize

Tuesday, February 7th, 2012

A lot of things happened since the last time I’ve written. Let’s I’ll give you the 199 Proof version up til actually getting to Taize: I moved out of my guest family’s house in Austria, spent a week sick but well tended in Vienna, I got on a plane to Paris, got on a bus […]

Every New Beginning Comes From Some Other Beginning’s End

Saturday, January 7th, 2012

It’s not that I haven’t wanted to write in a while, I promise. In fact, I’ve been doing so man amazing things that I’ve thought regularly that I have too much to write about and need to wait for things to calm down. That, obviously, don’t do a good job communicating my experiences to the […]

Waiting at an Airport

Friday, November 11th, 2011

Waiting is a hilarious thing. I’m sitting in the airport right now, waiting. Waiting for a gal I haven’t seen for more than 8 months. Eight months. The first month of that wait lasted for the last 8 months of my life. The last two hours have lasted the remaining 7 months. I wrote in […]

Is This Real Life?

Thursday, November 3rd, 2011

I feel funny. Is this going to be forever? (no, of course not. this too shall pass) Austria is unbearably beautiful right now. A thick and everpresent fog has descended upon us. If you can even see the mountains nuzzling whichever little hamlet you’re in, you certainly can’t see past them. Today I stepped outside […]

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