This is my life
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Saturday, November 28th, 2009we’re in this together.
belly.
ache.
goodness sake.
easy,
steady,
wasn’t ready.
bitter.
sweet.
remember what’s beneath your feet.
earth.
rocks.
listen to him when he talks.
breathe.
look.
open up. read the book.
tremble.
shiver.
just accept. he will deliver.
relax.
slide.
shrug off all that heavy pride.
be.
wherever.
we’re in this together.
We Have Time. (We have time. We have time!)
Thursday, November 19th, 2009We wrote these words when we were afraid of what it meant to be loved unconditionally.
A Dream
Friday, October 30th, 2009My mother and I were sitting in a parking lot discussing my future. I was feeling pretty hopeless facing graduation soon with a BA in Philosophy and Religion and no idea what to do next. I was getting sarcastic and bitter towards myself, kinda frustrated that my [...]
I Like Mantras: Think. Everything is Beautiful
Friday, October 16th, 2009A dear friend of mine one day suggested I find a mantra. I had been trying to think of one for a while. Some ideas popped in my head but sounded forced, cold, not-accurate.
“There’s not a spot that God is not.”
“Let it be.”
Things like these blew around the caverns in my mind while [...]
I want to create
Sunday, September 20th, 2009I want to make,
to have,
to hold,
to shape,
to love,
to mold.
I want to give
and reach
and find.
I want to bend
and stand
and bind.
I want to be
and wait
and try.
I want to hope
and think
and die.
If we think we’ll ever grab it,
our delusions become habit.
Stepping further from the truth
casting off our precious youth.
Hm. That wasn’t nearly the end of the thought [...]
The Nonplanner
Thursday, September 17th, 2009I am conducting an experiment. It shall last exactly as long as it does. I have been trying half-assedly to be a non-planner for a while, but now I feel like really not planning.
I also feel like putting down a few thoughts that I suppose have become mantras for me. They mean [...]
I know you’re out there
Sunday, September 13th, 2009I used to wake up an hour earlier than usual before elementary school and high school — perhaps once a month, sometimes every day for a week or two. I’d go running. I remember beginning the conversation, “OK. Hi, God. Let’s talk.” These were fairly simple conversations, I thought. [...]
On being sick
Monday, August 31st, 2009Sometimes we face tests in the form of gross sickness but to smile and to bless takes a weight off of your chest. At first I felt defeated; the answer was not greeted with the joy that it so needed, for I was too conceited and my soul call wasn’t heeded. This feeling is [...]
The dragon, the griffin, and the Phoenix
Monday, August 24th, 2009The road was treacherous. Broken. Thin…
The straight parts crooked,
The wide parts thin.
The dragon of pride and the griffin of weakness clashed an epic tempest.
I did not give in.
Neither one could win.
The dark and dreary, often weary, sometimes cheery — but always the parts that fear me — those chambers in my [...]
Nothing To Do But Exist
Monday, June 29th, 2009“I think if I had one second in your brain, I would completely implode,” she said.
“Yeah, man, can I make a documentary about… just you? That would be the sweetest thing ever. We can just drive wherever and I’ll give you complete freedom as long as when I say it’s time to move on, we [...]